Shattered
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It hurts more than it did last time, almost six months ago. I really do love you, I still do. And I always will. You have no legitimate reason to be angry or to break my heart, even though I know you believe you do. Why lie to yourself and convince yourself it's the truth.. I will never understand. Nor will I understand how it all happened so quickly. I guess that's life.. Right? You don't understand how or why anything happens.. Only in retrospect do you realize how much these kinds of things shape you, for better or for worse. I don't want anymore.. I just want to be alone until I've fulfilled the necessary obligation of existing, for however long I'm meant to. Going in I was guarded, knowing that all good things must come to an end. A lesson I had learned a few months before. And now, coming out, all I can say to myself is "Why didn't you listen? You could have prevented it and instead, you're sitting here crying. You had the most beautiful time, but now you're paying it for it, and you only have yourself to thank." Perhaps this goes along with my love for self inflicting pain. But this pain hurts more than any others, including those of its kind. If only you would have believed me, on so many occasions, instead of believing your assumptions, which were based on a crazy idea in your head.
I really do love you, I still do. And I always will. |
Tuesday September 29, 2009 | leave a comment (0) |
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