" Shame on you
For thinking
You're an exception
We're all to blame
Crashing down to Earth
Wasting and burning out
Fading like a dead star
Harm is coming your way
Yeah it's coming your way
You used to be everything to me
And now you're tired of fighting
Tired of fighting
Fighting yourself
Shame on you
For thinking
You're all alone
If you want I'll make you wish you were
Failing to impress
Why can't you sleep with
Someone who'll protect you
Harm is coming your way
Yeah it's coming your way
You used to be everything to me
And now you're tired of fighting
Tired of fighting, of fighting yourself
Yourself, yourself, yourself
Fighting yourself, fighting yourself, fighting "
I feel like it's someone speaking directly to me. Every single line. Shame on me for thinking I'm an exception..
I know it's probably largely my fault but everyone's right: I do deserve someone so much better. She was amazing until she ended it three times, and that makes her not-so-amazing after all. The only thing I wish now is that I hadn't been so stupid and naive to let myself fall in love with such a person, someone who can't commit, can't forget her exes but can forget me so easily. I'm still not over her.. But I guess, I just haven't met the next amazing person yet. However, when I do, I will be very wary so as not to walk into another trap all over again.
I'm back in Singapore. I'll write more about it and upload pictures when I have proper internet at my house again. The library is awful for a privacy freak like me.
And then hopefully the next time I write, I'll have better things to write about than this depression I've fallen into. I looked up everything that's wrong with me on WebMD, I have ALL the physical signs of depression, and the emotions to match. If it looks and sounds like a chicken.. It's just temporary though, maybe a six month slump in my year. You know what, maybe it's not a chicken, I know I'm upset about her, and it will pass when I find someone better. I'm not depressed depressed, like I was a few years ago.. But then again, I really don't know. One of my lovable quirks is that I am forever in a constant state of denial.
most of us ARE constantly in denial. it usually just..... helps us to get by better. we just don't realize it.
elizabeth on July 7, 2009
denial denial.. helps us until the thing we're in denial of is something that actually really needs outside help..
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